Day # 335

I thank God for a friend who challenged me in my view of who God is -- 自己觉得神是一个怎样的神，不是从小到大听别人说/别人的意见. What are my personal thoughts/opinion? Who is God? What kind of God is He? Made me think real hard, and I realised on the spot, that I actually do not have an answer that I could call my own.. except God is a God who loves me. "There has to be more than this", I thought. And I've been thinking & praying for the past few days. Last night during shower, I thought about what I went through one of the days before an exam - it was a subject that I hated the most, one that I feel most hopeless with. I was at the stage where I thought even if I studied, even if I understood what I read, applying them in answering questions won't be easy, and that is what I struggled with the most. I wanted to give up so much I even thought of not going for the exam. Trust me, I wailed on my bed like a baby, telling/complaining to God "I really do not want to go for this exam. I really hate it, etcetc." Then and there, I felt God comfort me - God is my comforter. I quieted myself and decided to get back to study, and while studying, I felt peace - God is my peace. The worry & fear was gone. I also asked God to show me what I should focus on, and He did because they came out among the exam questions (whether I did focus on those topics or not is another story though, and I've learned my lesson)! - God is my help.

In my previous posts:
Day # 334 - God is my protector
Day # 333 - God is a faithful God, He is my companion, my comforter, my strength. He gives me hope and fills me afresh each day.
Day # 331 - God is my teacher. God is my potter.

And more, I'm sure :)